It appears that ten years have gone by since May 2013 when I decided that what I really needed to do was to start a blog. I was living in Washington State working in a WIC (Women, Infants, and Children) nutrition clinic, then. I had a nutty, wonderful Italian husband. I was trying to negotiate the disappointment of having had to leave Costa Rica, assuming I would never be back.
How things have changed. What a blessing it is that we can look backward over our lives, but not forward.
I took a break from blogging. For a few reasons that confuse even me. One, the reason that isn’t confusing, is that I have 1.5 full time jobs, and literally finding the time and/or being able to stay awake when I sit down are real challenges. The cooking business that my boyfriend Hernan and I have takes tons of time and energy, even when we aren’t in the kitchen. The cooking is the easy part. And actually the other two reasons I haven’t been blogging are tied to my parther in life and work. First, he is a very private person. And it’s hard to share about MY life, when “I” am so often “we.” He doesn’t post anything personal on line, and gets highly annoyed with me for posting pictures of him. Which I do anyway sometimes because I am sharing about ME which he is separate from, but also not. And then—the part that kind of kills me—there are people in his life do not like me. Not for something I’ve done or haven’t done, simply for existing. And it’s kind of hard for me to correct that. No use promising to do better or saying I won’t do it anymore. I am, in fact, going to go right on being me no matter whether even I like it or not. So that’s that. Why feeling dislike coming at me from the world silences me is not something I have spent a lot of time analyzing, but maybe I should. I would be a terrible public figure.
Anyway, I’m here. Wearing my big-girl pants and my raincoat that hopefully will keep out the Dislike even if some of it falls on me. Ha. If I don’t continue this blog, no one will, and really, someone should!
Baby steps. Baby truths. Baby blog posts.
My 19 year old nephew is here staying with us for a few weeks. In a few days, Hernan’s mother and daughters are coming to visit. Lots of excitement surrounding that, and some nail biting. Then in June, a childhood friend will come with her young adult daughter. So it’s going to be a busy time. And I will be doing part time office work for Stay in Tamarindo, and I will be doing full time booking/cooking/bookkeeping/marketing for our catering company Tamarindo Grill Master. And I will be keeping house and trying to get 8 hours of sleep a night. Hoping to surf once in a while and blog with some slim regularity. That’s a lot of things. We’ll see how I do.
Circle back. Step forward. Smile. Everything is alright, or at least some things are. Most things. And it’s a beautiful day.