Suitcases

You are sitting there in the living room with your shoes on and your hat.
And the tv is off which is impossible.
And there are suitcases beside you.

You say you are leaving. That much I can see for myself.

You say you shouldn’t have come here in the first place.
You say I don’t love you.
You say you read that in my diary.

I don’t say anything.
Clearly, you have helped yourself to my words.

You say the driver will be here for you any minute and he is.
I say goodbye.

The first time you left me you snuck away like coward and I nearly died of grief and rage.
But you begged to come back.
Maybe I wanted to see you walk away like a man; watch you walk out the door with your shoes on and your hat.
Maybe I wanted to remember you as the back of a hat and two sets of white knuckles clutching your suitcases.

Prayer To The Mantis

teach us, mother/sister
the moment for teeth
we are tender-skinned creatures
seduced by softness, softened
by a slow caress and close
breath

teach us, show us
when and where –
quick
before limbs are unraveled
just
below ear, left or right

(A very old poem I wrote once up on a time when I was very mad. It wasn’t supposed to be funny, but…)

strange dark

get the hell out
of my dreams
can’t you see my husband
lying here
slightly snoring
you have your
own wife
who adores you
young and
sweet

get out of here
what’s wrong with you

are you
sorry now
about what you
did then

you are
looking for me
in this strange cold dark
trying to speak and
take my hand

(Note:  The original poem starts out with a stronger word than “hell” but I can’t quite bring myself to post it that way.  So you can read it whichever way you like it best.)

tell me about the telaraña

give me your arms
quiero ver las venas
quiero sentir la piel
entre dientes
quiero ver las formas que hacen
the negative spaces
while you talk to me of máscaras
of música
tell me again about the telaraña
and use your hands
quiero ver los movimientos
de las cosas escondidas
los músculos que se mueven
en la oscuridad completa
inside and under skin

(title poem from Tell Me  About The Telaraña)

lo único que importa ahora

Caminamos desde Santa Bárbara
hacía las estrellas con pasos torpes y risa
que marea, tomados
de la mano en frente de
dios y todo el mundo.
La noche suave nos envuelve
como agua profundo;
en la neblina flotan
estrellas. El amor no es lo
único que importa, pero es
lo único que importa ahora.
Me disuelvo hasta quedar en la
neblina con las
estrellas.