you said take me home
to the sea and
i promised
i would
neither of us imagined then
on those last days of
pain patches and tireless visitors
the weight
of a carry-on bag
with ashes
i tried to lift it
into the space above
my seat on the plane but
couldn’t
the gentleman who helped
eyed me strangely
when the plane took off pointing
toward the endless Atlantic, i
reached for your hand
i really did
but your hand wasn’t there
it was in tiny pieces in
the overhead compartment
and i had only air
to hold on to
i cried then
as we lifted
everyone could see me
you said take me home
to the sea
and i promised
i went down into the water
with your teeth and
your bones pressed into
my skin
and watched
as the tiny pieces
fell slowly like snow
around me
